the Past that won't go Past

It has come back
and it clogs my mind
it haunts my soul...
and HE tells me, let go!

I have shut my eyes
I thought that would help me erase
But it stays put, waiting for me to open my eyes
and HE tells me, let go!

I forget...
It is nice this ways..
I forget moments
I forget the Past...
but I haven't been able to let go

When I remember it again
It comes back like an eager child
Climbs and clings
and refuses to go...

I try to pretend
It never happened
I never was there
I was born today, I baby myself...

I know I have stopped turning to HIM
but HE gently reminds he is there to take care
If I can't let go today, I will be able to tomorrow...
And I fall asleep...