Sunday, May 21, 2006

Musings

Why?

I had it...
I had it deep
I had it wild
I had it fierce in me.

But naieve I was,
I let it out in open,
And there came a stranger
And he took it away.

I want it back,
Why did I let it go?
How come I dint realize
How come I let him squeeze every drop of it
Why did I let him take my passion away?


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Dream

She wakes up from her dream in the middle of the night. She just saw her beloved. She turns on her bed, and stares at the empty side. There she had seen him, and now the mischivious lover hides away. She runs to her mother, and she gasps for breath while she squeals, I saw him Mother,I saw him. 'Ah!, poor thing, he is away, miles away in a foreign land. You haven't seen him dear.'

She lets her old mother retire back to her bed and off she runs to her sister, I saw him, dear, I saw him!, she gushes. 'Ah! you silly girl, you have just had another dream. Now be a good girl and let me sleep in peace..

Off she rushes to her room, and shuts the door tight. Then she talks to her dream, and tells it, eh you evil dream, why do you play games with me. Why do you show me his picture. Why did you tell me he's come? They tell me I am a fool, and they all laugh at me. It is all because you ... you silly dream. Now out you go from this room, from the room of my thoughts. I will see him when he comes in real... No more do I have patience to deal with you. So out you go oh silly dream!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Worth reading and re reading

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs saysThis is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO ofApple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12,2005.
I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of thefinest universities in the world. I never graduated from college.Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a collegegraduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life.That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.The first story is about connecting the dots. I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but thenstayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I reallyquit. So why did I drop out?It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwedcollege graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption.She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates,so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyerand his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the lastminute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on awaiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We havean unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course."
My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduatedfrom college and that my father had never graduated from high school.She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a fewmonths later when my parents promised that I would someday go tocollege.And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a collegethat was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-classparents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After sixmonths, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted todo with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure itout. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had savedtheir entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it wouldall work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back itwas one of the best decisions I ever made.
The minute I dropped out Icould stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, andbegin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on thefloor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ depositsto buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town everySunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. Iloved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosityand intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you oneexample:Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphyinstruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, everylabel on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because Ihad dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decidedto take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned aboutserif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of spacebetween different letter combinations, about what makes greattypography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle ina way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life.
But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintoshcomputer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac.It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had neverdropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have neverhad multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And sinceWindows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computerwould have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have neverdropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might nothave the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it wasimpossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college.But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can onlyconnect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dotswill somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something -your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never letme down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky – I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and Istarted Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, andin 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a$2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released ourfinest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had justturned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a companyyou started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought wasvery talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or sothings went well. But then our visions of the future began to divergeand eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board ofDirectors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out.What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it wasdevastating.I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I hadlet the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had droppedthe baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard andBob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was avery public failure, and I even thought about running away from thevalley. But something slowly began to dawn on me – I still loved whatI did.
The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I hadbeen rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to startover.I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Applewas the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heavinessof being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginneragain, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of themost creative periods of my life.During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, anothercompany named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who wouldbecome my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computeranimated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successfulanimation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Applebought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed atNeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and Ihave a wonderful family together.I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't beenfired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess thepatient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick.Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me goingwas that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. Andthat is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work isgoing to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be trulysatisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way todo great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet,keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'llknow when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just getsbetter and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you findit. Don't settle.My third story is about death. When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you liveeach day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly beright." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "Iftoday were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am aboutto do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many daysin a row, I know I need to change something.Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I'veever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Becausealmost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear ofembarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face ofdeath, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you aregoing to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking youhave something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason notto follow your heart.About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 inthe morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn'teven know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almostcertainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expectto live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to gohome and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepareto die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'dhave the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means tomake sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy aspossible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had abiopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through mystomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and gota few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there,told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctorsstarted crying because it turned out to be a very rare form ofpancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery andI'm fine now.This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its theclosest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I cannow say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was auseful but purely intellectual concept:No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't wantto die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. Noone has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death isvery likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's changeagent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now thenew is you, but someday not too long from now, you will graduallybecome the old and be cleared away.
Sorry to be so dramatic, but it isquite true.Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of otherpeople's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown outyour own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to followyour heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you trulywant to become. Everything else is secondary.When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The WholeEarth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It wascreated by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in MenloPark, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch.
This was in thelate 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so itwas all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It wassort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google camealong: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and greatnotions.Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole EarthCatalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a finalissue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age.
On the back cover oftheir final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road,the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were soadventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish."It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. StayFoolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as yougraduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. Thank you all very much.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Passing by

Well I excel in sarcasm they tell me some time... i would have been flattered had they also told me sarcasm of which genre... as in pleasant or unpleasant ....(and i didn't know sarcasm had genres... just invented this one!)

Now let me try my hand at sarcasm, wit and the little sense of humor i have.


* My pal sent me back the book he had borrowed. He is a very sensitive person. To everything that comes his way, he will keep it like it were his. So it is strange that in just two remindings he actually sent me the book back. Yes, the book doesn't look mine any longer. Like I told you, his love and ownership is all over the book. Only it looks yellow and smells of oil, when its on books!

*It was awesome, to a lesser degree. Like good is to better, it was some awe, and could have been better awe.. whatever, let me tell you what and where it was. At wild and wet - water park. We had loads of fun. We enjoyed the water rides, and floating on the simulated ocean. So could have the insects floating with abandon. Pity they just could not live up to it!

*Living away from your spouse must make you feel empty somewhere deep down. Because you now must be used to everything empty (read unoccupied), like the loo, the newspaper and your favorite seat infront of the tv.

* Thriller movies are great way of attracting attention. There are always smart asses who are eager to spill the beans. While you watch 36 China Town, just announce that you know who the murderer is. Well who said people don't pay attention to you!

*More later... much later!!!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Little things

How not to spend a weekend:

Wake up late and laze around whole day. Why? There are better things to do... Like get a haircut, get a pedicure, meet your Aunt ! He he he, actually I did all 3 of them today. I even signed up for fitness program. Will join my gym starting Monday.


How not to panic when you forget the way:

Road sense is bestowed on lucky few. So, it is okay if you are unlucky like me. My mom tells me, keep walking with a no nonsense gait, get into a shop and ask the shopkeeper for directions. If nothing is happening, get into a food joint, call home, she will come pick u up. So given this assurance, the damsel in distress gathers courage and traverses the path of the city of joy with much abandon.

How not to greet your old pal:

Say a nice hi.... oh oh oh .....don't miss the opportunity to slap him on his back...and say abbey, kaha kho gaye, shaadi kyaa hueee, tum toh bas biwi ke ho gaye.... whatever... it is an original line, and i am gonna save it for some good guy .... hmmm that reminds me... i havent seen a guy.. literally , -my hero is away...and i know of no elligible dates....- in Kolkata. and my sister plans to ruin all my opportunities tomorow, as she says... i dont care what you wear as long as you dont forget mangalsutra!!

By the way, I am going swimming and later for a movie.... So, well let me have fun...while the sun doesn't shine too brightly and it doesn't rain either....

Monday, May 08, 2006

Advertising Agencies in Kolkata

Jingle bell jingle bell... ad agencies in the Puchka City

JWT
e- mail:mike.khanna@jwt.com
247 8361

O&M
247 3406-7

McCann-Erickson India Ltd (0091 33) 2172001/2879
Kolkata:(0091 33) 2172001/2879Chennai:(0091 44) 435 9228, 432 3481Bangalore:(0091 80) 221 9058, 2229539Hyderabad:(0091 40) 3326261Television Billings: N.A.Capitalised Billings:Rs 3479.53 million(not available)Gross Income: 618.36 million Senior Executive:Sorab Mistry, Chairman & CEOMajor Clients:Coca Cola india(Coca-Cola/carbonated bevarages); TTK(LIG)(Kohinoor, Fiesta/condoms);Bacardi India(Breezer/ready to drink beverages);Johnson &Johnson India (Savlon,Band-Aid/woundcare);Gillette India(Duracell Plus/alkaline batteries,Fashion Razor 2001,Mach III Cool Blue /razors);Perfetti India(Happy Dent/chewing gum);TVS-Suzuki (corporate/TVS Max, TVS Scooty, TVS XL, TVS Sport, TVS Super, TVS Champ/motorcycles & mopeds); C.Krishniah Chetty (jewellery store);Thinkstream Technologies (software development); Virgin Atlantic (Virgin Atlantic/airline);Delphi Automotive Systems (Delphi/ automobile components);ACCEL ICIM (Accel-ICIM/ERP packages);UPS (UPS/ courier services);Times FM (Radio Mirchi/FM radio);Sundar Tajmahal Hotel (Taj Tristar/ hotels); Concept Foods (JLT/snack food);Eduquity(educational testing services);Reckitt& Colman(Cherry Blossom/shoe polish); Usha Martin Telecom(telecom);Nes tle(sunrise/ coffee); BPL (Gas tables);Khaitan (Fans); Nestle (Media buying); Stracon (Corporate); Goodyear India (Goodyear - tyre); Travel Corporation of India (tourism); MasterCard (credit cards)
Leo Burnett India Pvt Ltd (0091 33) 2801022

Mudra
Kolkata: (0091 33) 474 9084/85
Major Clients:Mahanagar Telephone Nigam Ltd (Corporate); Indian Express (News paper); Mid-Day (website); Global Trust bank (Banking);Indian Tourism Development Corporation (Hotels); Raj TV (TV Channel); Henkel Spic India (Detergents); Godrej Foods; Ahmedabad Electricity Co Ltd (corporate); LIC of India (Insurance - services); Honda Siel Power Products (gensets); Satyam Computer Services Ltd (Satyam - computer software); Satyam Infoway Ltd (Satyam - internet services); Cadila Healthcare Ltd (EverYuth - healthcare); Blow Plast Ltd (VIP Skybags - luggage carrier); Dabur Ayurvedic Specialities Ltd (Nature Cure - Ayurvedic products); Henkel Spic India Ltd (Fa - soap); Hindustan Motors Ltd (Mitsubishi Lancer - automobile);Samsung Electronics India (Samsung/televisions)

Saatchi & Saatchi
Kolkata:(0091 33)282 5295/557Chennai:(0091 44) 822 9213/52Bangalore:(0091 80) 506 5386-90/91-94Television Billings:Rs 392.4millionCapitalised Billings:Rs 711.5millionGross Income:Rs 159.98 millionSenior Executive: V.Shantakumar,managing director-chief executive officer india.Major Clients:Alembic Glass Industries( Yera Glass/crockery);Aptech (Aptech Computer Education/computer education);Ameya Trading Co (Superclass Coffee/coffee); Bayer India (Gaucho and other products/agro chemicals);Grasim Industries (Birla Plus Cement /cement );Indian Hotels Co (Taj Group of Hotels,Delhi /hotels);Shaw Wallace (Royal challenge/beer);TVS-Suzuki (Victor,Fiero/two-wheelers);Zee Telefilms (Playwin/lottery);Zandu Pharmaceutical Works (Zandu Chyavanprash,Zandu

Euro RSCG ( 0091 33) 464 7341/7798

Confluence Confluence Communications Ltd '
mail:conscree@satyam .net .in.
www.Confluencescree.com.Branch telephone numbers:(0091 33) 4630323
Major Clients:Ved Ram & Sons (Paras Milk /milk);VRS Foods (Paras Ghee/ghee);Paras Aqua Mineral/bottled water); Diamond Industries (Shop-n- Save/retail);United Riceland (Resham /basmati);GTC Industries (Style Mini Kings (filter)/cigerattes); P.A.Time Industries (Maxima/watches);Dixon Utilities and Industries (Weston TV/television

RMG Relationship Marketing Group India Pvt Ltd
phone :(0091 33) 5593471
Major Clients: Kewal Kiran Enterprises(Lawman Jeans/ready-made garments);Nine Broadcasting India (Channel Nine/TV Channel );DCM Benetton India(Benetton /readymade garments);Oyzterbay(Oyzterbay/jewellery);Marico Industries(Mediker/shampoos);Arvind Mills (Wrangler,Ruf &Tuf /readymade garments );World Tel india (Cricket Talk /magazine);Orbis Securities India (India Bulls/online tading);AM Marketing (Saj /consumer products );Dorcas Market Movers (Tejaswani /consumer products);Genesis Clothing (Genesis/readymade garments );Gangotri Textiles (Gangotri/ textiles)

Arms Communications Pvt Ltd,
Kolkata:(0091 33) 9831000051
Television Billings:1.7 million
Capitalised Billings:93.3 million
Gross Income:27.35 million
Owners:R.S. Ahluwalia ,G.S.Ahluwalia
Major Clients: Fortis Healthcare ( Fortis/healthcare);IT&T(Global/education);Relaxo Footwear (Relaxo/footwear); Net 4India (Internet service);Hero Mindmine (training)

....hmm.. lets call them up in the morning.... for now sleep....though it is the time to get up and get going..... lets catch a bit of sleep... missing my hero...!

Sunday, May 07, 2006

A lonely night

Thoughts on a lonely night!

naukri.com
Why do none of the guys get back to me?

vidwata.blogspot.com
Why do I not write on contemporary issues, like Pramod Mahajan being shot by his brother, or the Budhiya kid who ran 64 Kms, or Naushad, or Varodara troubles, or Iran, or index getting high, or commodities marketing.... no wonder only I end up reading my silly banter... eh!

mail.yahoo.com
no new mails...argh....

roomie.heart.home
My roomie, is away... out of town, but here in my heart...he he he....

Rest later, time to sleep!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Today's Banter

Let me talk today... It has been long since I did that any case. So let me talk!

Discovery
Hmm, at present like a lady I met in the airport while coming back from Goa, I am a lady of leisure. I am doing things I hadn't known I would do. Things I hadn't known I would enjoy doing. Like, dressing up! It's amazing how a person discovers oneself slowly. Is it evolving or just discovering a hidden aspect of yourself... Discovering that you like to wear sexy dresses, like few girlz in college used to, that you like to swing your hips and dance wildly, or that you like to spike up your drink and loosen up a bit!

Favorite Phrase
I say hmms a lot of time. It's amazing some one can fall in love with these queer sounds.. They are interesting, if you go blank at a particular point of conversation, or when you want to skip few odd questions, or you just want the other person to keep guessing, you could easily smile and say..ummmm... Hmmm!!!

On food and paradox

Kolkata and food must have rhymed, but for some reason they just don't. I have eaten a year's supply of sweets already, and it's just been few months here. Now there is a paradox, I am thriving or gorging on food, while this desire to wear dresses which would flatter a flatter tummy becomes stronger :D.

Friends
One interesting facet of marriage is friendship... How I realise I have left many a friends, and befriended one. This one friend that I have for lifetime, and ... well, marriage doesn't mean you stop being friends with your friends!!! But relocating from KTM to Kolkata does mean, no more of scrabbles, no more of coffees at the Bakery Cafe, no more hopping in boutiques to get dresses made, no more eating daal bhaat and aaaloo at annie's, no more jumping at parties, no more cha cha with milan :P

But it does mean few other things, like celebrating Vikram's baby boy, who is just 2 days old. It does mean the next door Aunty stepping in to say a quick hi, it does mean dressing up for Priyanka's wedding, it also means becoming friends with mom in law :D

Love
Now this is a difficult word, a difficult topic, a difficult area in life.... Let me address few dilemmas that we often come across.

Can a person be in love for sometime in life with someone, and then with someone else later on... Is commitment love? If you could have loved once, and then loved again... is it true that you have loved at all...

Lesson
There is one lesson life teaches us all the way along. To be happy in what you have today. Because life showers the best to you each day. To hold ones head high and to feel the spirit within move with passion.

Sometimes, somewhere your passion might dwindle, but then, you are such that passion can never exhaust... It might seem so, but there is an infinite reservoire of passion from where one can draw the spirit, the vigor and strength to love, to love ones life... because it is precious!