Awaiting Patiently!

It's nice to know you came by. It's nice to know you will wait. It's nice to know you will wait with patience.

Well, I should reward you for your patience, shouldn't I? What should I tell you today Annie. Should I tell you that the first part of my book has come true, I have a daughter now. And yes, I am sure she will turn into a beauty. She will not be someone who will dance on the floor with sneakers. She will be a stilleto dudette. Well, it is up to her really. I am merely imagining. And well what does this imagination suggest, did I secretly want to dress the way I never dressed, and be the person I never was. Think about it, we never really are sure about who we are, yet we try to be someone else. Well, I wonder who I tried to be... or rather why I gave up ... (i chuckle).

There has been so much of overhaul in life in the last one year. A precious little popped out... and I went under the knife for once and all in my life.. Fretting each time you go to the pediatrician ... hoping your babe has gained enough weight, debating on breast or formula with concerned family members, learning how to give M a nice bath, worrying when M rejects solid food...

Oh... I have become a Mommy, haven't I?

I wonder if a man ever underwent so so so so so many emotional ups and downs like a woman does. Motherhood is so humbling...you realize what effort your parents have put in. Soiled nappies, scattered toys, the yelling at the middle of nights... and still M or any other baby remains apple of their parents eyes. The toothless grin is so amazing, so fulfilling, so gratifying. You thank GOD that there is this one creature who loves u the way you are... who loves to see your face when she wakes up... whose face lights up at your sight... And there are trying times when you wonder how did your parents ever raise three crazy kids...and M is only 8 months yet...

Well, I am sorry i got carried away Annie... But what else should i talk to u. Should i talk about aspirations that have been swept under the carpet. Well...did u see nobody killed Jessica... it is a great watch...but not something i would like to see at this stage... with little time that i have on hand i am up for good comedies...but anyways i got to watch this movie. i loved rani mukherjee out and out... i wish i were like her character.. err.. what was her name.. ha ha ha...

ya... everyone wants to be someone else... This is a neat, non confusing philosophical dose for your nocturnal visit.

see u around ..
much love,

uhi sathi